Sapphires with Imperfections

Sapphires with imperfections,
Strike cords with the young and restless
They come to look at its beauty,
Hearing tales of glory,
Only to hold it in their hands,
and stair at the wonder, and majestey of it all

When then they see a spot, a speckle, a small black dot in the center
The center where the soul lyes, the center where it all collides,
Its perfection gone, its rhyming wrong, they set the stone down,
Disappointed,
Disatisfied,
and Unimpressed

Then turn to leave, and from the corner of your eye see
a girl, lonley and true, with eyes as blue as June, stairing back at you.
But a double take proves her to be nothing more then a sapphire with imperfections

Paint isn't permanent
And granite crumbles just as easy
As the twirl of the brush on the brick

But is anything really permanent?
Besides the beating in my heart,
Nothing seems real,
And the way i feel you
Didn't really exist.

And my mind believes you were there
And my memories remind me of how it happened
And my thoughts drift to you...

But my heart tells me different.
That you never existed
That you never cared
Desired
Wanted,
or Believed in me.

And for that reason ill paint over your image,
Ill paint over my mind
My memories,
My thoughts,
My heart....
But paint isn't permenent.

Chemical imbalence of a different sort

So here we go again,
Im back to this place
of chemical imbalence
where shrinks do their time,
and canabals thrive.

I thought i was gone.
I thought it was over.
But i got my hand stamped,
a scar on my mind...
If you will.

Where time and space dont meet.
And the children cant sleep.
Yeah im back, a mild case of simple neglect.

Mild in terms where suicide reigns true.

Yeah, Im back.

When the sun shines in the October sky,
a glint off the barrel,
the steel,
the steal,
oh what a dear

You got it for me how sweet of you,
now to return to my demise in final.
No pain to be surpresed
No movements to be digested.
Just this glorious october sky.

The sky that threatens lives and taunts us
Yeah im back.
But i havent been gone long!
Only monthes mabey less even.

Did you miss me?

No, im not here.
No, Im not coming back.
No, Ill never come back
and ill never be the same again.

Communication for the blind and true

When you hold so much back it hurts,
When the pain inside is a haunting way to say goodbye,
When your thoughts turn to strangers,
and your behaviors become a danger,
When your life is at a stand still,
and nothing good comes out of blue,

Thats when triggers are set off,
Thats when hearts bet,
Thats when I met you, in an instance,
a glance, a moment, a relapse.

Thats when bombs dropped on Normandy,
While flames shot up in Paris,
Thats when religon was proven wrong.

A fatal tear with your ear close to mine,
another fear set intact with our souls,
A naked truth in death and silence,
both scoarched in forgivness and shame.

Finalizing my downfall.

Rewrite the script,
just a little bit,
to the left,
no to the right,
there baby, thats just right.

A Charade of faces,
A swirl of places,
A few to many,
A few to few,
Oh look, your turning blue!

A flare of wisdom,
A jump of joy,
of wisdom and hope
or chaos,
or mabey both.

A dying sensation,
On the stone of conversation.
My falling rock,
My lost heart,
A leap of faith,
Or Suicide at its best.

three cheers for love lyrics draft.

Three cheers for love!
can it really be said or done?
Can one man really love a women
and forever act as one?

Three cheers for love!
ya thats right, just fall for me
like i fell over you, feet first
(you know thats the worst)

Hip Hip Horray!
Theres no time to pray
we are all gonners in this world of love today.

Hip Hip Horray!
Isnt it about time you say,
Its all a joke! your nothing but another trophy on my shelf
A worthless. useless little girl who meant nothing to me.

Three Cheers for love
Your nothing but a hopeless shmuck
You fell for the game of love
and now your just out of luck
To bad for you, youll never be lonley and blue
but i tell you, thats a life ill never choose.

Hip Hip Horray!
Theres no time to pray
we are all gonners in this world of love today.

Is it love or hate?
Is it true or fake?
Three cheers for love baby,
and hope your here to stay.

Hip Hip Horray!
Theres no time to pray
we are all gonners in this world of love today.

new title later, not finished

friendships baised on a false pretense
of something that was never there

thrills and spills
dives and guilts
were nothing compared to
the shit you put me threw

forged from limestone and failure
waiting untill the sun rises
to show you better times
and simpilar rhymes schemed only to tantalize the young.

Love is decency underneth it all
and walking tall threw the rain and snow
falling down but being caught by non accusing arms
and the warmth of a smile when its all gone wrong

rainbow rainbow underneth the sun
tell me what is it i have done?
ive hidden and tried so hard ive even lied
to get you off my back your presence i always lacked

To often signs of closure show or is it just insanity

The mixture of depression and confussion
makes me believe im not who i am.

Alone is colder and fragile in its own way
Thoughts could mean the end of me.

Tears are signs of weakness
and the voice are a sign of insanity.

Faith driven or simply forgiven my soul begs
for the unholy one.

Fallen from grace, from humanity,
from the petals that wilted away on that summer day.

Love for the rain and the stars shinging in the sky.

Mistaken for friends were the closest things coming to an end.

A need to talk but no where to walk the shower of light parades me.

Falling behind and a failure to rhyme a few simply steps to the end.

Love in a fools paradise

Follow me home to a place not to far
Fan the fires as you blister my heart
Escape the fate of a desprate lover
Become the sky, the sun, and a mother.

Flouresent stars in the midnight sky
Give me more then one reason why
I should not only fall but fly indeed
To a place so cold so distant and far from reach.

Aching and churning can only lead to
Yearning which causes distress,
But that’s simply the best
To deal with trauma and the fact that I’m simple a mess

A mess of what kind I haven’t figured out yet
For its not shattered nor torn nor frayed
More like dissolved and disintegrated
Into a fairytale, far far away.

Fireworks in May or a desolate parade

Runaway from the sky as it leaves you at night
in the dark hollow grievance of your flight

Scream into the sun as if there is something it has done
to destroy all you love and enjoy as if your heart is something to mess with

Demolish the skylight because it could never do as much for you as i did,
always wanting something in return

Forget the clock, the times that mattered and the times we shared so oddly paired only to disappear with the bang of a flare

I'd love you to hate me

I'd love you to hate me
because i cant comprehend distress

I want you to fight me
To feal to rush of a reunion

I'd adore if you never responded
and leave me in this gloom.

I would never be happyer
If you told me the truth of how you really felt

and i could never lie to your face
if in return you could destroy my own

Its funny how little this title means to you, but how much it means to me.

Soldier in the dark
Hidden like a rock
In the night sky

Princess in velvet
Never saw the light,
wandering through life,
like a knife through her heart.

Battle in the forest,
One december day,
princess ran away to find
A new life
A new love
A new beggining.

War in the Canopy,
A soldier dropped down
searching and listening for,
A new life
A new love
A new beggining.

Fallen to the ground,
sitting in the mud
Raining down like mad
her tears lost in the rut.

Soldier on his march
Tears streming down his face,
but a confident look in his eye
Hopes and dreams all in his musket,
folded away and tossed into the forest

A cry of anger, from a thump on the head
Sends the soldier back to where he was
A look of shock he recieves when he sees the princess
Laying in the mud, soaked in the rain,
She tried to recover from the fright.

The soldier snaps out of it and reaches for her hand
As the rain stops pouring, she stands with his help.
And stairs at the beautiful ballroom they have entered
The elegance so thick you can smell it like musk.
Bride and grooms first dance together, benith the midnight sun.

A decade later she still hasent been found

Its a play on words
or a shame to be worse
then any other person you have seen.

Its nothing less then a blessing
nothing more then a curse
that could bring you to your worse

A little pinch here, a little cut there,
A little bullet in my blood system
as i stair in pain
at the bleeding of the sun on a moonlit day and the collapse of a wound that has yet to decay, and the eyes on my corpse of uncare and despare
... and yet wants nothing more than to share a secret or two in the midnight blue walk along a winters shadow of serenity and doom.

Alcohal

Depression boils in your system
When you scream gods name
only in vain of corse
to find nothing but lost fame and vanity
in the empty bottles stashed around the room.

Alchohal in your heart raises
your unconsousness and you enter a state
of immortality and a subconcous ability
to hurt every person you love in a way so
dearly torn across the blade you never know
untill the damage has been strewn
across the room like its someones
curse yet to be upholded!

And he dosent hear her say

Hold your heart close to your chest,
Keep it warm, till you find the one thats best

Hold your heart close to your chest
Make believe he was the one.
To heal your wounded heart,
to seal the swollen wounds,
to mend the broken pieces,
that led you to your doom.

Make believe he made you smile,
But the whole time you were in denial

You know you cant find better,
you know your sick of trying

Pretend he is the one for you,
the one you want to give it to.

Pretend that you love him most
But be prepared, for when he turns into a ghost

Chaos>love

Tangled in the night sky, lightning bursts through wind.
Glare from the shock spreads across the acres of water.
Leaving forever you left me for never.
Lightning tears at the branches while you rip through my mind.

Hurricanes rush through the desert, as the sky turns a dark shade of black
The water destroys once strong pathways and foundations.
Waves of hurt flood through me as I have memories of your touch.
Staggering through the wind and rain I think of you, only in vain.

Air smashing through the air, sort of like how you never cared.
Debris flutter through the sky, and to think I thought you were all mine.
A tornado has struck deep in the night.
Flying through the air the pieces of us are shattered into the abyss.

Fires rage on in the crisp blazing sun
Torching the love we once shared
Memories turned to ash,
Now, you are only a part of my past.

Harmony in the High sea's

And your words sing a rhyme,
of a simplilar time,
When we would ride through the trees,
and into the sea.
A song in the back of my mind,
plays itself like its a crime,
a symphony of criminals and angels.
The lights flash a multi-colored siren of tyranny and shame.

I wouldent tell you anyway

she will paint her eyes blacker than the night sky
just so you cant see the pain that covers her mind.
Crying inside its to hard to tell
She dosent understand. dont ask her why
she dosent want to remember anymore
Anytime you want to help just walk away
anytime you want to scream just scream in the blackness
no one will ever see you.
she paints her eyes as black as the night sky,
just so you can see her pain.


note: this was a pre-lude to a blog i did on myspace.

Missing

Dager threw my chest,
You ripped my heart right out my breast.
Lungs gushing with hate,
Breathing at an odd rate.
Hands cuffed into fists,
Strangers looking at my wrists.
Fear singing in my mind,
Ravens flying in the sky.
My mind went dark today.
Darker than the night sky.
I lost myself.
No light to be found.
You candle stricken, the one i love.
Searching for something, never to be found.
Running through motions, as if they were mine.
Digging through memorys, trying to find a time,
of a place so hidden, so far away
of a time
so scarce, so full of life
when
the world was so bright, so gorged in light.
Sitting on the ground.
Stairing at the wall.
Contemplating what it would mean to loose it all.

Homeless is only a term used for those who own it all

Lying in the shadows on a breezy day
The apple tree blocks the sun and scars from you
The dewey grass melts away your fears
The falling leaves engross your mind, chasing away the memories.
The smell of rain calms your senses
The birds chirp so heavenly you forget you even had problums
And you fall into a lullaby, a false sense of security.
The wind changes direction sharpley and blows a gust of wind threw the locks of your choclate brown hair.
You sit up abrubtly, knowing its come back.
Something thumps you on the head and you fall to the ground,
only to be woken by someone that smells worse then that of trash.
A homeless man, wandering the part in search of spair change, will be the only one to ever know you existed.
His Camo colored jacket with all the tears and holes, has the stench of stale alchohal.
His toes stick out of his boots, and his hat has fishing hooks on it.
His shopping car filled with stale beer cans and empty pop bottles.
As he leans down to sense if you are still alive you see not only the face of a lonley old man, but one of a highly succesful world leader, who will eventually change the face of this planet singlehandedly.
His life flashes before you, and in an instant you realize he is more than what he seems.
This one man, has the power to make-or break this world.

Only in hell can you truly escape your dreams

Train-wreak in my memory,
A thought yet to be sorted,
Dreams tangled in a web of tyranny.
Screams of jealousy fill the room,
As you brush through the Petals of Slaughter.
Anguish and doubt are in the eyes of the awaiting children.
Distress fills your memory as you walk the ivory staircase,
Dressed in red silk to parade the moment.
The railing there to protect you, lead you only steps closer,
To your impending doom.
As you reach the top, stop and let secrets be revealed to you,
Just as you open the gold plated doors.
Turn the handle with much care as it is your life.
Mournful words cry out in the midnight sky.
Tears of tourment encompass your surroundings.
A grand tower of ecstasy fills your body as you take your first step.
Flames boil over the ever-darkening sky.
Deceitful villains encompass your area,
Only not in such a way you hoped for.
As your beautiful silk dress turns to ash,
You join them, never again able to see the moon shine off the beautiful lake where you got your first kiss.

A Suicide; A reqium

Some say misary loves company,
Mostly they are right.
You pull me down with you,
wether you know you are or not.
Your dragging me to hell with you,
but not in any conventional way,
I love you so much and you know that.
Why must you always belittle yourself,
and make life seem so utterly pointless?
Because I have a young impressionable mind,
and i tend to believe what you think.
I live in fear of the day,
When my world collapses because of you.
So scared of what I would do without you.
Because honey, im sure i couldent do it!


-please note this really isnt like my normal poetry cuz it more written to a specific person

Nightmares are only a figment of your imagination that take time to develop in to mind lapses

Run up the stairs,
To the corridor of doors,
Stop on a dime,
Turn on a Rhyme,
Nightmares occupy this hotel.
Open the door and find your worst dream come true.
Hide beneath the bench.
But its really no matter!
They will find you sooner than later.
And bring you memories of the butterflys.
Young man, your best bet is to jump the railing,
and pray when you die god will take your soul willingly.

As the broken girl flys the streamers fall to the ceiling.

Tick tock,
Tick tock,
The beat of my heart is nothing more than evaporating time.
The rhyme of words cluttered in my brain gives me strength for tommarow
Water-paints in my soul paint the image of a broken girl
Looking at you, asking for help from the prison in my soul
Set her free, to experiance the world
The colors show a path, a path of rainbows gliding upon the never-ending sky.
Find your wings, lost in the clutter of words and take the path the colors lead you to.
Quickl take her from her broken world before the shadows devour you both.
The branches will scratch your face and leave scars of your bravery
When you have left her broken world,
Never leave her for the shadows in her mind could quickly find her again.
Hold her in your arms and let her cry untill her tears turn from black to silver.
Take her hand, soar in the sky, and never be afraid again.

Swallowed above eternity

Sinking through the marsh and swallows of the earth.
Falling off a cliff that never has an ending.
Drounding in the ocean, with no one thee to grab my hand.
I lost my love the other day.
It fell off my sholder with a kir-plunk.
Trying to reach for it, I felt a tear in my heart
I fell to the ground and couldent breathe.
I heard these voices in my head
They had always been there, just not recognizable before.
They seem to tell me It's all over.
My love is disinigrating right in front of my face!
Im truly terrifyed, and i dont believe i can last much longer.
A crowd starts to gather, and a hand reaches out for me,
I look up and see your beautiful face, the face of perfection that caressed me through every night,
every lost dream,
every gained memory,
the face i thought i would never see again.
You scoop me up in your warm loving arms,
and walk toward the gates
they open, and i die in your arms just before resurection in my eternal paridise, because im with you

The missing opertunities of being alone

Screaming all the air out of my lungs
I'll try to cope with this dispair
Of being alone most everyday
and singing so softly in everyway
I fall to my knees and beg the wind to stay
If I have to, Ill even get down and pray!
The sun rises south of no where,
and sinks before it got a chance to shine.

With your hand in mine (Rhymed Triplet)

We can walk this fine line,
And together we will sing a Rhyme!
About a time when love was blind

The path to hell is alot less traveled then the path to serenity

Walking through the shadowy path,
Branches are scratching my face and scarring my spirit.
Demons frolic through the branches, singing a melody so soft and sweet.
Shivering from not just the brisk night air,
But from the flame you have set afire in my soul.
It burns me threw and threw, but it is such a wonderful feeling.
Like nothing I have felt before.
But soon the flame will turn into vapor.
For your love will not stay long, it never does.
The beautiful flame comes and rises through my body not so often,
It leaves me with the taste of fate, and tingling for more.
Only so often will I ever accept the flame now,
For the Payne of life without the flames is enough to walk toward the gates of hell.

I forget the reasons for this rose

I'll run through the forest,
To try to escape your face,
Your beautiful eyes and the way they enchant me.
Your flurorestent smile and the way you laugh.
The way you held me the entire night,
when my world crashed,
by the sound of a single bullet, colliding with your skin.
The blood on my shirt remains for eternity,
just as you will, inside of me.
I will place a dozen roses on your grave, and never leave you again my love,
for tonight, underneth sweet selena, and the twinkling stars,
I take my life, with your soul, slowly guiding mine.
I lay this rose on your chest, just before you take your last breath.

Dead on Arrival

Will you walk with me today?
Walk with me and show me the way,
For I do not know how to do this on my own.
Your love can guide me through this stormy night,
Your hand in mine as we glide through the sky,
Getting stars stuck in our teeth.
And with lessons learned in our back pockets,
We daze at the foreign beauty of a bullet.
For tonight, we die, with your hand in mine.

We can learn from everyone, even our adversaries

The demon in my soul rises deep beneath the hott coals of my spirit!
It chases down the good in the little childrens lives,
Captures it, and sets it free amoung the ravens in the moonlight.
We capture the ravens and set them back into our minds,
To keep us powerful and knowlageful against the demons in our spirits.
To teach us of love and happiness throughout the universe,
even when it looks as though the demon has taken over our entire souls.
We see the shadow of light against the tunnel of darkness and learn that even our greatest adversarys can teach us to hope.

Tearing at my soul

Gone are the words in my mind for they slip throw the cracks so easily.
I must get these out of my head before they threaten my life by the undug ditches of hate they are digging in my heart.
The book of souls says nothing for the child of a broken soul.
For as time passes, as days fall, as love losses yet another game.
I lose life. Life is gone through the shadows in a dark forest
Ill tear this rose apart before it drownds me in its darkness.
An open wound has been opened.
And i can never go back in time to sew it back up.
The invisibleness of your heart strangles me and i die silently under the cover of the moon.

Love never wanted me.

You were all i ever dreamed of.
This love, I'd never known.
Gone to the wilderness, searching for something i'd never seen
Searching without hopes. Searching with despiration.
For your love, I will never find.
Lost in time a translation for your memory, a soul yet to be mistaken.
For the sun that is my love.
Gone are the days that fly by the sky, as the moon settles in the night just before sunrise.